All is Relevant, None is True

The final hours of 2011 are ticking away. And my thoughts in these waning hours, as is often the case, revolve around faith. I guess the title of this entry pretty well sums up my recent train of thought. I have been pondering the words of John Lennon in the song Imagine and reading some […]

Moo Year

Let me say up front, that I do not make New Year’s resolutions. I think trying to change your behavior because of an arbitrary date is doomed to failure. Making little changes over time that is eminently doable. So in no particular order, here are some things I would like to improve upon (that is […]

Dressing for Success

My mother taught me a lesson that has become part of the core of who I am. It was a very short anecdote from the church she grew up in. Every Easter at Glad Tidings Assembly of God, the pastor’s wife wore and old and often out of style dress. Why? She did not want […]

Center of the Universe

This is a belated entry. It actually took place a couple of weeks ago. I struggle as a parent of a child with a disability. When you parent a child with special needs, you are in somewhat uncharted territory, even more so when your child’s disability is rare. You can’t just run down to Target […]

Nothing Moves…This Week

This week was a roller coaster ride. Thankfully, it is over. Sunday the world is fresh again. “Gray Day….Everything is gray. I watch. But nothing moves today.”…Dr. Seuss Monday was one of those days that I felt wholly inadequate as a parent. Ethan has struggled with his whole life with urinary continence. What most children […]

Perspective

So yesterday I had my weekly bitch session with John. Sometimes I am sickened by the sound of my own voice. I whine about every aspect of my life. I am somewhat of an expert on the subject of me…at least the non-functional parts. The theme of this week’s discussion was perspective. By my own […]

Integrity or Exhibitionism

I was talking with my therapist last night. The subject as always was on religion. About half way through the hour, I realized that we were not on the same page. I was talking about my anxiety about being honest about my spiritual state with people I am close to. I told him I really […]

Mystery Meat

Here now, more of my post therapy ramblings about religion & the nature of faith: I begin this entry with a quote from the Matrix: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever […]

Standby for Hibernation Mode

Were I to be on the design team for humanity version 2, there are a couple of new features I would add to the human brain: Standby Mode and Hibernation. Standby mode would allow us to disengage huge portions of out intellect for a pre-determined portion of time, minutes or hours at a time. Here […]

Paradigm Shift

So I find myself trying to find the way out of the forest of agnosticism. Honestly, I am not quite sure where to “go.” As I have mentioned many times before, I grew up plenty-hostile…Pentecostal. Pentecostalism is a very ethereal segment of Christianity. Your faith and your perceptions of God and others are emotionally centered. […]