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Legacy Code

I have no time for sermons, platitudes, politics and cliche one liners. But sitting quietly in an empty room surrounded by my beloved dogs? Sometimes, just sometimes, I feel connected to the universe.

I Will Survive

If I did one thing wrong, he was not averse to smacking me upside the head, or so I thought.

Noteworthy

I stumbled onto an old album by Pete Seeger at the Sing-along Sanders Theater. The album covers many traditional and folk songs. As the name would imply, the audience sings along. One song in particular just released waves of pent up emotion coursing thought my veins. It was “Amazing Grace.” I was at my desk, […]

Vergence, Part 3, the Practice

I start this entry by describing the best class of my undergraduate years. It was my final semester and I was taking 19.5 units. By that time, I had completed all my religious studies and I had only upper division psychology classes, including my thesis left. Oh, and one pesky general ed. class. I needed […]

Human: Individuals or Organelles?

When I was in High School, I worked summers at a day camp. Most days we went on a field trip of some sort. On one particular day, we went to a local park. We started to play kickball and all of the counselors participated. It was a particularly hot day, so I kicked off my […]

Afterlife Lotto

I admit it. I bought 4 Mega Millions tickets. I got 2 for the Wednesday drawing and 2 for the Friday. “But Ben, why would you throw away 4 perfectly good dollars.” Two reasons: 1. There is not much risk on the front end. I will not miss $4. 2. The potential rewards are freakishly […]

Thou or It?

My spirituality has taken a radical shift since becoming a hypocritical agnostic. I say hypocritical because I am not a very consistent agnostic. Since entering the winter of my discontent, I have distanced myself from the god of my past. But oddly enough, I am experiencing a kind of spiritual renaissance. While I see less […]

Legacy Code

I had my Imagine meeting this morning. It was our second to the last meeting. Not sure what comes next, but I’m open to possibilities. We are reading the book Naked Spirituality by Brian McLaren. I had procrastinated all week and as of noon yesterday, I had not read the second half of the book […]

Resistance is Futile

Bad metaphor #43282.5 When I was a kid, I used to go camping several times a year. We would always camp near a lake or a river. I loved the water. I am a confident swimmer and it was a great way to cool off in the summer. I also loved to fish. I was […]