Letting the Days Go By, Let the Water Hold Me Down

My faith is a faint shadow of what was once substantial. I continue to attend church, though I am not certain why. That being said, I was moved to tears today in church. Why? I am not sure exactly. But I think it has something to do with connectedness. Biologically, we are unique individuals. Yet […]

Perspective

So yesterday I had my weekly bitch session with John. Sometimes I am sickened by the sound of my own voice. I whine about every aspect of my life. I am somewhat of an expert on the subject of me…at least the non-functional parts. The theme of this week’s discussion was perspective. By my own […]

Mystery Meat

Here now, more of my post therapy ramblings about religion & the nature of faith: I begin this entry with a quote from the Matrix: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever […]

Attitude Adjustment

Denial is an interesting phenomenon. After getting my annual review, I was really pissed off that I got dinged for being hostile and abrasive. My reaction was the same as it has always been: Yes, I lose my temper every now and then; but it is no worse than other managers in the organization. Why […]

Paradigm Shift

So I find myself trying to find the way out of the forest of agnosticism. Honestly, I am not quite sure where to “go.” As I have mentioned many times before, I grew up plenty-hostile…Pentecostal. Pentecostalism is a very ethereal segment of Christianity. Your faith and your perceptions of God and others are emotionally centered. […]

Peace

I am having a tranquil day. My most ambitious projects are already done (turn the garden water supply on and fill the tree gators). My wife is out of town and my son is playing contently with his new friend. As I write this, I am looking out the window on a gray Saturday morning. […]